Feel Bored
Sleepy
Out side raining again.

Its a damn cold
bored
hate to see
Wonder how Vampire can appear on the day
Oh! Bcoz its raining outside and dark sky

Tik! Tok! Tik! Tok!
Waiting ..wasting my time
time can't stop run
If you waste it, you never can get ti back
never turning back.


p/s: Waiting my lunch time..hehe~

Oh Gosh!..I can't believe this week will be end soon. What a wonderful week.. Minggu yg aman akan berakhir hari ini..arghh...! That b'coz our Mr. vamp will be back on Monday next week. And Im sure everybody will be feel like hell again.. Why la U didn't take long vacation...Can't U see, everyone in this building very happy when Ur gone..

Mr. Vamp, I wanna tell U, If U want people respect U please learn how to respect other people. I know U trying to make people understand U but U method to realise it is wrong. As human beeing (if still la..U r Mr. Vamp) U should know we also got feeling. We can feel bored, angry, hated, stubborn, respect, love etc. WE ARE NOT YOUR ROBOT..

Apa² pn I like this peaceful week..

Fuhh....I try so hard to get the free time to write on my blog..its so hard and finally I took leave today..Suddenly I feel bored at my work place, perhaps bcoz my working environment or people around me or stress..Stress? Mana ada kerja yg tidak stress sekarang ni.. too much consequences, gossip and hanky panky..as long as Im not 1 of them sudahlah..

Good news I heard last week is we will get the 2 months bonus..yeah I know ramai yg tidak percaya but that true and the memo has been spread to all department last week was mentioned that all staff will get their bonus on end of this month.. But the bad news.Hah..this really shock to all staff I guess.. the latest news I heard yesterday from the source I can trust mentioned that bonus will be pay to the staff end of next month..How come oh? Suda issued memo and suddenly changed.. Janji politik ah? don't promise if you know you can't do it..that ridiculous...I hate ppl once they make promise and confirmed but they broke up. I knkow its easy to say "I'M SORRY"..Haiz..

Last week my boz called all collegue to briefing, and say like owez - pesanan dari penaja(The owner and GM)..bla..bla.. Ive nothing to say doesn't mean that I don't have to say anything but it is not the right time to say it. We must know when to speak our mind and when to mind our speech. For what? Rugi buang air liur iif they just ask but never listen. I really miss my previous time..They have no idea what the staff thinking..don't you? don't act like you know,..you never know it because you never try to understand them..you just trying to listen but not trying to understand them. How if u were them?..Me? Of coz I know, when I looking at them I can see my past time as them..nor now, Im still feel the same level. I respect them bcoz they respect me. And not bcoz terpaksa nor bout the position.

Btw, whatever I write down here is just to released some feeling and my mind..Maybe when the times is comes I will speak out what in my mind..but when??..~

Finally I can log in back after a few month streamyx line at my home down. Now is the fasting month and I feel very happy when going back from office that you will see no traffic jam anymore..Fuh~..Lega you know can balik awal.. Some more reason maybe now is school holiday.

Today I surf 1 online boutique that got attractive outfit and cheap (to me laa..). I dun wan to think twice bcoz Im the type of person that can change my mind anytime... (Coz I will change my mind when I see the other nice clothes). So before its too late and they will out of stock I need to purchase it. This 2 picture below is the one I have mentioned. Nice right?! It doesn't matter to me to mix and match my outfit so other people didn't look like I wearing the same clothes.

Here I want you to know, while you feel alone and no body want to comfort you. Here I am, my shoulder always ready for you. Here your son always ready to listen your arguing about my brother and sister. When they abandon you, you can look back and your son still standing here for you mom. Even Im are masterful in our family but I just wanna keep our family for the best. like you do to us.

25th April every year..
That my day that remain me 'bout something..
About my wish, age, ambition, target and vision that I still cannot reach yet.
Btw I would like to thank to my beloved parents for their luv and caring to their lonely son..
To my best friends who is stand beside me when I need them, you guys are such person that I can not find and compare to anybody in this world. Although we are apart now but I hope we still keep in touch. The time we were shared together, that are precious time to me..

Today it's my birthday, than I will chase the dream that I still not fulfill yet. I will lead my life the way I wanted to be. It's better to regret my action, instead of regretting b'coz I didn't do anything. Aja! Aja! Gambateh! Jia You!..wahahaha!!.. Now is 4am already..Feel Sleepy leh..

Happy Birthday To Me!!!

bila dibaca,
setiap satunya,
bawalah aku terbang,
bersama tulisanNya.

bila didengar,
alunannya,
bukakan hati,
ia satu irama.

bila jelas,
apa isinya,
senyumlah,
bersama semangat perwira,
tersemat,
di hati srikandi,
berjuang
,untuk hadiah dikotak hati.

+zaidharis+

This poem is not mine nor you, so please don't make as you own. This is the blog owner for this beautiful poem, http://puisikuseniku.blogspot.com/2009/04/hadiah-kotak-hati.html

Alone in my room
Look out through the window
It still raining and cold
Dun you need a hug?
to keep you warm..

The damn night cold
Lay awake in my bed
Thinkin' of you
Don't you miss my whisper
Telling you how pretty you are..
How lucky I am while you by my side..

The fuckin' nite, the crying sky, the cold blood
Slit in my throat, cut out my heart,
Leaving me here, tear it apart
Dun you know that..
YOU..took my heart away, leave a hole in my chest
could I live nor fall in luv again

My skin as a canvas, Knife as a brush
Paint a tattoo, consume my blood
If you are Evil, than shall I a fallin' Angel
Haven't you heard my scream..
Pain.. Deep.. Trappin' in the dark
Forgetting right or wrong

Deep kiss, hurt goodbye
You not luv me, just to own me
would you be proud?

Grille on my window, sealed my fate
I wish I could seen the light
Through my widow on this fateful night

Woke up this morning,
Now I realised, outside there its not raining
Its snowing...

Wah...I feel so tired for this week.Now I can have a nice weekend..(hope so)...This week Im so bz with some other stuff, working, earn money via Internet, show and etc..(I wonder I do such a many job but still not kaya...hahaha)





O ya talking about money, I got some incident happened at PB ATM Machine @ CP. I need some cash on that day before noon, then I told the driver leave me at the ATM Machine at CP together with one of my friend. While I arrived there I saw a old man still trying to do cash transaction on the left handed machine. otherwise his right side machine still got few people waiting they turn. So I just keep walking to other side standing behind the old man. He took so long for the withdrawal his money then I try to ask if he need me to assist him. He said nothing, he wonder why the machine took so long and can't do the transaction. After he left then it my turn. I also facing the same problem. What the hell with that machine. After waiting a few minute then error answer appear on the screen that say unable to do the transaction. Luckily I double check my balance account there by using online ( PB provided in their premise). In my account the amount I try to cash has been deducted from my account. I print then go to the customer service counter ask for they help. The man I look for (with slumber) paste me the form to fill in. My friend said she curious why the employee slumber je give me the form..like they are very familiar face this situation. After that the guy just told me someone will call me for investigation then the money will be debit back to my account. It took 30 days from now to proceed..(My God, How if I need urgent money Why they don't think what in my mind) Luckily I have other card from other bank.





Whatever I just want my weekend be peaceful. I wanna take some long sleep..hahahaha..

...and take some weekend entertaiment..hahaha...Come on laa, Im a guy lah..

I hope same to you all my friends...Happy weekend and Happy Easter! Jangan lupa pi sembahyang..hehehe

This morning I rush to finish my job because I plan to work half day but suddenly got another job..haiz...Then I use the 'gear five' to finish the job a.s.a.p then I can going back to take some sleep. At last around 4.15pm I finish it. If I go back to home 'alang²' already. While nothing to do I just create this lazy picture with some poem from FS my friend sent to me...hahahah...What a f**kin' poem!! But I like it..hehe...Now almost 5.30pm...time to go back!!

Good leaders are made not born. If you have the desire and willpower, you can become an effective leader. Good leaders develop through a never ending process of self-study, education, training, and experience. Some think great leaders are born, not made. It's more likely that good leaders had leadership talents that showed up early in life. If they managed to get themselves into positions of responsibility, their leadership skills development happened naturally. This guide will help you through that process.

To inspire your workers into higher levels of teamwork, there are certain things you must Be, Know, and, Do. These do not come naturally, but are acquired through continual work and study. Good leaders are continually working and studying to improve their leadership skills; they are NOT resting on their laurels. Anyone can be a good leader. Like everything else, it takes is commitment, knowledge, and practice.

You've probably had all kinds of managers in your career. Some were marginal and others had outstanding leadership skills and abilities. What are some of the characteristics of the better leaders you've worked with? Do you think you could lead like them?When you look at successful supervisors, managers, or directors, you only see them in their current role. Unless you've known them for a long time, you don't know how hard or long they've worked to build their leadership skills. Some people learn how to be good leaders through trial and error. Others gain their leadership skills through books, coursework, and working with mentors.

You might think that you're too shy or not educated enough to be a leader. But that's what leadership development is all about - helping people move beyond what stops them to become better leaders.

Before we get started, let’s define about leadership. Because some people think they know about leadership and can’t differ which is a leader skill and being bossy.

Leadership is a process by which a person influences others to accomplish an objective and directs the organization in a way that makes it more cohesive and coherent. Leaders carry out this process by applying their leadership attributes, such as beliefs, values, ethics, character, knowledge, and skills. Although your position as a manager, supervisor, lead, etc. gives you the authority to accomplish certain tasks and objectives in the organization, this power does not make you a leader, it simply makes you the boss. Leadership differs in that it makes the followers want to achieve high goals, rather than simply bossing people around.

When a person is deciding if she respects you as a leader, she does not think about your attributes, rather, she observes what you do so that she can know who you really are. She uses this observation to tell if you are an honorable and trusted leader or a self-serving person who misuses authority to look good and get promoted. Self-serving leaders are not as effective because their employees only obey them, not follow them. They succeed in many areas because they present a good image to their seniors at the expense of their workers.

Here some reference from few sources to someone with ego’s talking about being a good leadership to us. We will appreciate if that people can teach, show and lead us how to be a good leader instead of insinuation and intemperated to employee. You in are high rank in admin organization shall know how to manage or deal with you staff. And one more thing, please down look down other people because we don’t know how intelligent there are.

The basis of good leadership is honorable character and selfless service to your organization. In your employees' eyes, your leadership is everything you do that effects the organization's objectives and their well-being. Respected leaders concentrate on what they are be (such as beliefs and character), what they know (such as job, tasks, and human nature), and what they do (such as implementing, motivating, and providing direction).

So in a nutshell -- you must be trustworthy and you have to be able to communicate a vision of where the organization needs to go. If you are a leader who can be trusted, then those around you will grow to respect you.

BE a professional. Examples: Be loyal to the organization, perform selfless service, and take personal responsibility.

BE a professional who possess good character traits. Examples: Honesty, competence, candor, commitment, integrity, courage, straightforwardness, imagination.

KNOW the four factors of leadership - follower, leader, communication, situation.

KNOW yourself. Examples: strengths and weakness of your character, knowledge, and skills

KNOW human nature. Examples: Human needs, emotions, and how people respond to stress.

KNOW your job. Examples: be proficient and be able to train others in their tasks. KNOW your organization. Examples: where to go for help, its climate and culture, who the unofficial leaders are

DO provide direction. Examples: goal setting, problem solving, decision making, planning

DO implement. Examples: communicating, coordinating, supervising, evaluating.

DO motivate. Examples: develop morale and esprit de corps in the organization, train, coach, counsel

Authoritarian Leader
People who get this rating are very much task oriented and are hard on their workers (autocratic). There is little or no allowance for cooperation or collaboration. Heavily task oriented people display these characteristics: they are very strong on schedules; they expect people to do what they are told without question or debate; when something goes wrong they tend to focus on who is to blame rather than concentrate on exactly what is wrong and how to prevent it; they are intolerant of what they see as dissent (it may just be someone's creativity), so it is difficult for their subordinates to contribute or develop.

Team Leader
This type of person leads by positive example and endeavors to foster a team environment in which all team members can reach their highest potential, both as team members and as people. They encourage the team to reach team goals as effectively as possible, while also working tirelessly to strengthen the bonds among the various members. They normally form and lead some of the most productive teams.

Country Club Leader
This person uses predominantly reward power to maintain discipline and to encourage the team to accomplish its goals. Conversely, they are almost incapable of employing the more punitive coercive and legitimate powers. This inability results from fear that using such powers could jeopardize relationships with the other team members.

Impoverished Leader
A leader who uses a "delegate and disappear" management style. Since they are not committed to either task accomplishment or maintenance; they essentially allow their team to do whatever it wishes and prefer to detach themselves from the team process by allowing the team to suffer from a series of power struggles.

Certain situations might call for one of the other three to be used at times. For example, by playing the Impoverished Leader, you allow your team to gain self-reliance. Be an Authoritarian Leader to instill a sense of discipline in an unmotivated worker. By carefully studying the situation and the forces affecting it, you will know at what points you need to be in order to achieve the desired result.

• Challenge the process - First, find a process that you believe needs to be improved the most.
• Inspire a shared vision - Next, share your vision in words that can be understood by your followers.
• Enable others to act - Give them the tools and methods to solve the problem
• Model the way - When the process gets tough, get your hands dirty. A boss tells others what to do, a leader shows that it can be done
• Encourage the heart - Share the glory with your followers' hearts, while keeping the pains within your own.

Lastly, even Im not a leader in company organization but Im still a role model to my family. everyday trying to be better, learn from other people experiences and study on it. Take care to people around me will make me exist. even hard but I will move on to be a better person In My Life..

References

Bass, Bernard (1989). Stogdill's Handbook of Leadership: A Survey of Theory and Research. New York: Free Press

Bass, Bernard (1990). From transactional to transformational leadership: learning to share the vision. Organizational Dynamics, Vol. 18, Issue 3, Winter, 1990, 19-31.

Blake, Robert R. and Mouton, Janse S. (1985). The Managerial Grid III: The Key to Leadership Excellence. Houston: Gulf Publishing Co.

Bolman, L. and Deal, T. (1991). Reframing Organizations. San Francisco: Jossey-Bass

Kouzes, James M. & Posner, Barry Z. (1987). The Leadership Challenge. San Francisco: Jossey-Bass.

Lamb, L. F., McKee, K. B. (2004). Applied Public Relations: Cases in Stakeholder Management. Mahwah, New Jersey: Lawrence Erlbaum Associates. Routledge U.S. Army Handbook (1973). Military Leadership.

26 Feb 2009 - Thursday


Die laa me if like that ..hahaha..tomorrow is Friday. FRIDAY means our Annual Dinner..WOW..but sh*%#t I forgot 1 thing not done yet... The Guest Book.

Later.. I can not think any idea to create it look glam, classy and rich..But then I moved all thing to the floor then try a few design but still look bad laa..hahaha..Pikir punya pikir and sedar tidak sedar its almost 2am liao..Wah! tomorrow still working oh...

27th Feb 2009 -Friday



9.00am Sharp

Thanx God, finally I make it..ahahah...Even 2 hours sleep only but as long as it done. I don't care. And 9sm sharp I put it on my bos desk... Even she jeling² pasal lambat hantar kerja..hehe..
Even late but She satisfied with what Im done for this.. I'm celebrity that night.

p/s: Opss...I still didn't buy any outfit yet..GTG..

This is actually I copy from my email sended by my boz.. Thanx Ms. Sheila..I appreciate it and hope that can be guide all of us to wade this year due to economy crisis.

the artical are:

We begin this New Year with dampened enthusiasm and dented optimism. Our happiness is diluted and our peace is threatened by the financial illness that has infected our families, organizations and nations. Everyone is desperate to find a remedy that will cure their financial illness and help them recover their financial health. They expect the financial experts to provide them with remedies, forgetting the fact that it is these experts who created this financial mess.

Every new year, I adopt a couple of old maxims as my beacons to guide my future. This self-prescribed therapy has ensured that with each passing year, I grow wiser and not older. This year, I invite you to tap into the financial wisdom of our elders along with me, and become financially wiser.

* Hard work: All hard work bring a profit, but mere talk leads only to poverty.

* Laziness: A sleeping lobster is carried away by the water current.

* Earnings: Never depend on a single source of income. [At least make your Investments get you second earning]

* Spending: If you buy things you don't need, you'll soon sell things you need.

* Savings: Don't save what is left after spending; spend what is left after saving.

* Borrowings: The borrower becomes the lender's slave.

* Accounting: It's no use carrying an umbrella, if your shoes are leaking.

* Auditing: Beware of little expenses; A small leak can sink a large ship.

* Risk-taking: Never test the depth of the river with both feet. [Have an alternate plan ready]

* Investment: Don't put all your eggs in one basket.

I'm certain that those who have already been practicing these principles remain financially healthy. I'm equally confident that those who resolve to start practicing these principles will quickly regain their financial health.

Let us become wiser and lead a happy, healthy, prosperous and peaceful life.

Before you scroll down to read this I would like to inform you this is funny joke that I just received via email from my friend. You must are open minded and have sense of humor to read this ...

Yo!
Im a Sabahan Blogger. What I wanna write here, pertaining to this as Sabahan Blogger. I know in Sabah we already had 1 persatuan. Persatuan Blogger Sabah such a nice name huh! I can't get it kenapa ada persatuan ini? For what? or ada tujuan lain disebaliknya. Apa kelebihan dan kerugian bg blogger² di Sabah ni kalau tidak join it. Sorry to say Im not interested. I read fews blog from sabahan people and some blog more to political issue..

As a blogger..yeah ..I am.. So I think I don't need any association or club or else b'coz I wanna be freedom. Bebas bersuara, bertindak, bebas dari kongkongan & tidak terikat mana² peraturan yg menghalang kebebasan for you from speakout your minds, your opinion, perseption or else.

Heloooo...!! Come on laa Sabahan! I didn't meant to be disobey the rule, what Im saying here tidak akan buat orang bunuh diri pun. Kalau ada terlanjur kata or tersinggung just leave comment I will say Im sorry for that saying rude. I radther to be different than look aliked with others people. Hey..This is me okay..Bye..

1. Sekurang-kurangnya ada 5 orang dalam dunia menyayangi anda dan sanggup mati kerana anda.
2. Sekurang-kurangnya ada 15 orang dalam dunia ini menyayangi anda dalam beberapa cara
3. Sebab utama seseorang membenci anda adalah kerana dia ingin menjadi seperti anda
4. Senyuman daripada anda boleh membawa kebahagiaan kepada seseorang, walaupun dia tidak menyukai anda.
5. Setiap malam ada seseorang mengingati anda sebelum dia tidur.
6. Anda amat bermakna dalam hidup seseorang.
7. Kalau bukan kerana anda,seseorang itu tidak akan hidup bahagia.
8. Anda seorang yang istimewa dan unik
9. Seseorang yang anda tidak ketahui menyayangi anda.
10. Apabila anda membuat kesilapan yang sangat besar, ada hikmah sebaliknya.
11. Sekiranya anda merasakan andadipinggirkan, fikirkan semula;mungkin anda yang meminggirkan mereka.
12. Apabila anda terfikir anda tidak mempunyai peluang untuk mendapatkan sesuatu yang anda ingini,mungkin anda tidak akan memperolehinya, tetapi sekiranya anda percaya pada diri sendiri lambat laun anda akan memperolehinya.
13. Kenangilah segala pujian yang anda terima. Lupakan segala maki hamun, caci umpat cela.
14. Jangan takut untuk meluahkan perasaan anda; anda akan merasa senang bila seseorang mengetahuinya.
15. Sekiranya anda mempunyai sahabat baik, ambillah masa untuk memberitahunya yang dia adalah yang terbaik.Hanya seminit diperlukan untuk mendapat sahabat baik,sejam untuk menghargainya,sehari untuk teman tetap paling setia.walaupun punya harta yang banyak,teman tetap paling berharga.

This is such a beautiful advice from my friend JoJo Ng.. I like it, Jo!

Its like playing poker.

You win, you win. You loose, you loose.

Unless if your are like in the movies, and playing with all the tricks (That is call cheating)

How many of us knows how to gamble with life? If you are handsome, you are poor. If you are handsome and rich, you will die early. If you are handsome, rich, and live long, then you will surely loose some part of important elements in life. (Perhaps, happiness or love, etc . . .)

If the poker card comes to you, then its yours, if it doesn’t, then its not. If you make the wrong move, then there will be no turning back, no U-Turn. No one will always win, no one will always loose. One shall declare the winner, the other the looser, but this doesn’t mean that it will be forever.

The gambler takes the risks, the gambler takes the challenges. If you wanna fool with the game, you have got to face the consequences. May it be good or bad.

But sometimes, there are gamblers who stop taking chances. This my friend, takes lots of courage as well. It is not an easy move to back out while your on the poker table. One might look at you as a coward, the other might look at you as a looser. Well, I look at this person as a winner. It takes a brave heart, and a smart brain to tell himself that enough is enough. Move forward and never look back. The decision had been made. The decision, is not only for the sake of himself, but for the sake of his team, his associates, his fans, and for the future.

If you are to gamble with your life, don’t let the joker fool you. Don’t let the Kings, and Queens, Spades and Hearts to eat your precious life away. There will always be en entrance and an exit. Step in , and step out, while you still can, MY FRIEND.


p/s: Life is really simple, but we insist on making it complicated…

To someone not a part of the punk, emo, goth type subcultures, the three may seem very similar, especially when it comes to emo and goth.

Nothing could be more laughable to people who subscribe to these lifestyles, however. If you want to understand emo and goth, you need to understand their roots.

Both emo and goth stem from the punk culture, and they both retain those roots, although emo has stuck closer to its punk origins than has goth. All three of these lifestyles stem from music.

Music is highly important to the human race – it acts as an outlet, and it moves us emotionally. Punk music has had a sort of underground popularity for decades now, and it has spawned other, similar styles

Fashion is as much an art form as music, so it stands to follow that each separate branch of this tree would have its own distinct style. Of course, you can’t stereotype and say that every person within a fashion mode wears the exact same clothes. It’s no more true to say that every goth wears all black than it is to say that every preppy wears pink polo shirts.

Emo, goth and punk have signature styles, and the differences are obvious if you look closely. Goths do tend to wear a lot of black, but they also experiment sometimes with other dark colors. Black pants, skirts, corsets, interesting tights, etc. are all typically associated with goth.

T-shirts of bands popular among goths also abound, as does black eye make-up lipstick, nail polish, and heavy footwear (combat boots!). The easiest way to differentiate between emo and goth is accessorizing. Goths tend to wear heavy Victorian and other historically-inspired jewelry and accessories.

Emo fashion doesn’t stay away from black, but it’s not nearly as common to see black clothes as it is in the goth world. It is typical for hair, but not clothes.

Clothes can sometimes be thought of as a more modern cross between grunge and goth. Hoodies, scarves, and tight jeans are very typical.

Once you understand the basics of what differentiates emo, goth and punk, you won’t mistake one for the other. Each group has its own aesthetic that makes it unique.

Gothic, like the Glam and Punk scenes it sprang from, is highly rooted in style. Music and fashion take precedence over other forms of expression, in fact, the newsgroup alt.gothic lists resources on bands, clubs, and dying hair, but no resources on any particular doctrine or philosophy of the goth scene. Similarly, Nick Mercer's Hex Files: The Goth Bible only lists information relevant to the consumer: CDs, boutiques, magazines, etc.

The emphasis on style, tendencies towards individualism of the subculture¹s members, and general lack of definition, therefore, make Goth difficult to place within a socioeconomic context. Goths come from all economic classes and the culture which a Goth has grown up in does not seem to be important.

The only way to place Gothic in a previously-studied context is to relate the defined elements of the subculture to the subcultures it rose from. Punk and Glam, having had more media exposure and widespread recognition, are easier to contextualize, and perhaps Goth can be defined in a limited fashion regarding its relationships with its parent subcultures

Glam, which itself is a synthesis of the Underground and the skinhead subcultures (Hebdige, 60) is a consumerist movement based mostly on self-presentation and representation. This aesthetic and the propensity of goths to play with conventional ideas of gender are highly visible in the Gothic scene. In fact, David Bowie, one of the main figures of the Glam scene, is also quite revered in the Gothic scene, reinforced by his friendship with perennial Goth favorite Bauhaus and his appearance in a popular movie in the Gothic subculture, The Hunger

Punk rock is also an enormous influence on the Gothic scene. One of the bands seen as the cornerstone of Gothic, Siouxie and the Banshees, started out as punk groupies (Hebdige, 110) and gradually created their own dark aesthetic, taking the black clothing and bondage gear of the Punk scene to the extreme and taking song inspiration from the macabre and horrific.

Goth also has similarities to New Wave (also known as "art school punk", which is itself a descendant of Glam and Punk. In fact, Goth can be seen as sort of the dark inverse of New Wave, relying on the same theatrical spectacle and artistic strategies and having similar musical structures, but relying more on a celebration of death and sadness than on absurdity and politicism.

here is a subcurrent of individualism and self-alientation that sets Gothic apart from these other subcultures, beyond the stylistic approaches. Although Goths will gather at clubs to dance and socialize, they tend to set strong boundaries and mostly do not dance with one another as other clubgoers might; they dance alone ("Spacial").


This individualistic nature is indicative of a personal sense of alienation. Alienated youth have, according to Keniston,a fragmentation of identity in which "[t]he core of their ideology is negative, a repudiation of the central values of their culture, with few clear positive values or goals." (184-185) This may be a reaction to the plethora of choices youth, especially those more intelligent than average, are expected to make, causing them to refuse all and adopt a nihilistic attitude (86-87).

Another theme of youth alienation is a strong love of fantasy and an idealization of the past (189). This is reflected in the Gothic subculture's love of Victorian and medieval/fantasy-inspired art and clothing, and in the admiration of fantasy films such as The Dark Crystal, Legend, and Labyrinth, (which co-stars David Bowie).

Women are surprisingly much more represented in Gothic than in other subcultures. They are neither absent nor invisible, as hypothesized in the studies of McRobbe and Garber (112), but occupy an equal position to their male counterparts. This may be because Gothic is seen as a traditionally feminized identity (As Hannaham puts it, "Heavy metal was aggressive, sexist and therefore 'masculine,' while Goth had a softer, more accepting, 'feminine' cast."(114)). There is more of an emphasis on reflection and intellectualism than on action, and the participants in the Gothic subculture tend to have a strong artistic bent

The primary reason for the strong female presence in Gothic, however, seems to be that traditional gender roles are not as important in Gothic society. In other subcultures where gender roles are subverted, females do indeed become more visible, as in the Hippie and Glam movements

A crucial part of representing oneself in the Gothic subculture involves questioning the adherence of others to the Goth scene. This is strange in a subculture with such a loosely defined ideology, but certainly has parallels in other youth movements. For example, rappers will strengthen their own self-image by denigrating other rappers, as in the case of the arbitrary east coast/west coast distinctions and the arbitrary rivalries they have spawned

The practice of ridiculing fellow Goths is highly visible on the internet. Sites such as "Cheeziest Goth Site of the Week" , "Goth Goose of the Week" and "Reality Check" are databases of websites which are too pretentious, too poorly designed, or not Goth enough by the standards of the reviewers.

Furthermore, Goths tend to look unfavorably upon those just joining the Gothic scene. Alicia Porter states that "First and second generation Goths look suspiciously upon the new generation, doubting their authenticity and disliking the exposure they give to a subculture which would prefer to remain underground." ("Gothic Subculture") The urge to remain out of the public eye is certainly understandable, as the media tends to portray Goths in an unfavorable ("Gothic Subculture") and frequently inaccurate ("Gothic Subculture") light

However, though there are Goths who take themselves very seriously, there are also those who represent themselves by downplaying their "gothicness" and by making light of their involvement in the subculture. The "Insta-Goth Kit" is a satirical look at the popular icons of the Gothic lifestyle - music, fashion, literature, etc. It is a response to those who those who join the subculture abruptly and without learning more about it ("Bored with your current look? So am I! Shed off those blah blue jeans, purchase an Insta Goth Kit, and enter the mysterious world of Goth easily and Cost Effectively!") It also addresses stereotypes of Gothic attitude in non-Gothic culture ("Remember, all true artists and poets were greatly misunderstood, much like the gothy people are. That is why we are outcasts! Because *hand to forehead* we are all so misunderstood!")

Although the Gothic is a difficult subculture to define, a sharper picture of it emerges through its relationships to Punk and Glam, through the psychological studies of alienated youth, and through the act of self-representation, especially on the internet. It is not simply a culture of "darkness", it has roots in an opposition to modern society and a celebration of gender exploration, a morbid aesthetic, and a dichotomy of representation by degrading self and others

You Are Brilliant and Stubborn

You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

Year 2009 Career
You will discover new ways to regenerate your finances this year, as you let go of blocks and fears that are holding you back. Rethink your belief that you have to work hard for money; as you evolve spiritually, you will find that this thinking no longer serves you. As you step into your creative flow, work and finances become much easier for you. You realize that you're able to manifest a dependable income when you just allow your talents to flow. As you learn to do what excites you, your enthusiasm will overflow and new opportunities will come your way. Trust that your ideas will tap into profitable avenues. When you stop placing restrictions on yourself, you will be able to move ahead and gain amazing benefits.

You enjoy giving outwardly and being in the public eye, and your life-long pursuit of developing your creative talents now has a new venue for manifestation. As you embrace your power, opportunities open up for public speaking, writing, performing and sharing visionary ideas with others. Through your work, you will most likely be helping people to achieve their own creative connection and a higher purpose in life. Your integrity and energy is shifting, and others are inspired by your wholeness and beauty.

The fruits of your work relationships will increase by leaps and bounds this year. Any endeavors you undertake will be very profitable, expansive and satisfying. As you open up to the creative avenues before you, you will earn bountifully, so surrender to the blissful adventure of walking down a satisfying career path!

Year 2009 Romantic
Success in your work life spills over to your romantic life. You are newly inspired as positive friendships develop and your loved ones express how feel about you. Their encouragement helps you feel more comfortable about expressing yourself romantically. Spontaneity can be challenging for you in romantic love, but your gifts are many and it's important for you to appreciate and love yourself so that it rubs off others and attracts the right person.

In recent years, you've been hesitant to trust your instincts when it comes to love, but that mindset doesn't serve you anymore. As you start surrendering to the notion of a one-on-one relationship, the right person will walk into your life. As you let the doors open on your romantic life, your home environment will become sunny and stable, and you'll find your personal relationships improving. By the end of the year, your romantic life will have taken on a whole new dimension. You will be singing with joy as you experience intense intimacy with your partner, leaving you content on an emotional level deeper than you've ever felt before.

Much of the transformation happening to you romantically this year is about discovering how to be comfortable in larger fields of social existence and belief systems. As you expand your personal beliefs, you are also learning to trust others and connect more with the creative energy blossoming between you and everyone you meet -- especially your lover

This early November I went to Penang Island and it look quite nice there, I spent for 3D2N there and I had a wonderful vacation on there. People like me not coming down here just for seeing or looking for food, took picture( of coz laa..hahah) or shopping like ordinary tourist but MOSTLY looking for the night life here(Penang).

Thanks God, that 1st nite there is Hallowen Nite. So, of coz Im looking for the nite entertaiment, rite? Hahahah...But I have no picture for this..so sayang oh...Luckily me & my frens staying near the most top pub & bar there (Continental Hotel).I couldnt believe my eyes when I went down to that area (just crossing the road) that nite, it was HEAVING! Thousands of people..... all dressed in an array of costumes, make up and looking out of this world (excuse the pun). Ah it was Just So Outrageous! It was brilliant to see so many people dressed up, made me so proud to be part of this..... seriously, it was great! You really should have been there! Loved being in the midst of it all ! For those people who got dressed up : WELL DONE YOU !!!There were Ghost Busters, Police uniforms, accident victims, even Betty and Thelma (from the Flintstones) and those two gals looked absolutely adorable. Then there were draculas wondering around,witches, warlocks, frankensteins, anime characters in leather, 'school kids", ghosts, cowboys, prisoners, a great looking cleopatra, can can girls, 80s vintage dressers, clowns, mime artists, and the list goes on .... yes, I was impressed... saw so many fab outfits and make up too.

We went to R&B! Wow!!! Wow!! all the hip people were flocked at those two places. DJs and Bands group were rocking the house! the band was great! Brilliant! Even I had a bit disappointed to go this pub (coz I more prefere to crowded & more happening place like 1st pub we go) but I had enjoyed and hanging there till the police make sport check (dun care laa they didn't kacau me mah). ;ll-))What a great night , Hallloween was such tremendous fun! Danced all night and party all night tilll late! Hope my next destination (Manila) more Happening and Glam. hahaha..