Aduii..rasanya sia cukup bertahan suda kana fitnah, kana kutuk, hina..Tapi sia masih jugak dapat bertahan lepas dengar my really close buddy said "Word doesn't kill you. Ignore it or you can changed the negative thinking to the positive one". I asking again "But, how?". She said "Let them spread the news and you just be calm and doing nothing about it. Others will think it is just rumors to bring you down. The advantage from that you're getting famous". Then I replied "Didn't I look like an asshole or bitch act like that?" And she told me again "Screw it, who care?"

And Yes, I do like she told me. But this few week, once again I facing the same matter. Hanya topik yg berlainan. I can't ignore it but apa yg sia takut, hal ni boleh merosakan hubungan sia dengan orang lain.I don't care people talking about me, that mean Im still hot(seems like a biatch sound huh..haha) But this time, sampai melibatkan orang lain dan menjatuhkan imejnya. Gosh! It really make me sick with this kind of gossip. Apa perasaan orang tu dan kawan²nya kalau dengar cerita² begini tersebar. Betul jugak ckp orang mulut tempayan boleh ditutup tapi mulut orang sendiri mo tau jaga. Im tired..too tired to dealing with this kind of persons. bila kena batang hidung mereka sendiri pandai pulak marah. One of my friends told me.."Ko belum lagi jadi artis, baru model suda byk gossip and scandalskana cakap". Nasib laa sia ni bukan jenis yg cepat melenting. Apa yg sia tidak puas hati ialah durang suka kaitkan sia dengan orang itu, orang ini..Im just making a friend..My job need me bergaul luas and can communicate with all level..

Siapa yg makan lada dia laa yg terasa pedas. Jangan sampai sia menjauhkan diri dari kamu disebabkan hal2 begini. kamu kawan sia jugak tapi begini kh kawan? Kawan rapat lagi tu..Terang² sia ckp sia mimang tiada kaitan dengan org2 yang kamu sebut² melainkan sebagai kawan. Sama macam sia layan kamu jugak..begitu laa sia layan kawan² yang lain..Sia sebagai kawan kamu, sia akan simpan jugak rahsia kamu even you'e no longer the person I can trust. What ever I do, I will keep it to myself..Now I really miss my best friends. Tiada orang yg dpt ganti tempat kamu..Cella, Abeth, Boy, Tom, James..Even we seldom communicate with each others but when one of us dlm kesusahan, you guys adalah orang pertama datang utk menyokong dan memberi semangat..

Moral yang sia dapat Don't simply trust people. Musuh yang paling hampir ialah orang yang paling hampir dengan diri kita. Mulai sekarang sia akan beransur-ansur mengundurkan diri and to whom it may concern, you all will be regret it of losing me as a good friend. Once I trust people I will share everything, anything I have..sia bukan orang yg suka berkira tp kamu paksa sia untuk menjauhkan diri. I give a clear crystal of trust to everyone of my friends. once you broke it, you will never get the new one..even can fix it, the look will never be the same as the 1st time I give to you.