Aduii..rasanya sia cukup bertahan suda kana fitnah, kana kutuk, hina..Tapi sia masih jugak dapat bertahan lepas dengar my really close buddy said "Word doesn't kill you. Ignore it or you can changed the negative thinking to the positive one". I asking again "But, how?". She said "Let them spread the news and you just be calm and doing nothing about it. Others will think it is just rumors to bring you down. The advantage from that you're getting famous". Then I replied "Didn't I look like an asshole or bitch act like that?" And she told me again "Screw it, who care?"

And Yes, I do like she told me. But this few week, once again I facing the same matter. Hanya topik yg berlainan. I can't ignore it but apa yg sia takut, hal ni boleh merosakan hubungan sia dengan orang lain.I don't care people talking about me, that mean Im still hot(seems like a biatch sound huh..haha) But this time, sampai melibatkan orang lain dan menjatuhkan imejnya. Gosh! It really make me sick with this kind of gossip. Apa perasaan orang tu dan kawan²nya kalau dengar cerita² begini tersebar. Betul jugak ckp orang mulut tempayan boleh ditutup tapi mulut orang sendiri mo tau jaga. Im tired..too tired to dealing with this kind of persons. bila kena batang hidung mereka sendiri pandai pulak marah. One of my friends told me.."Ko belum lagi jadi artis, baru model suda byk gossip and scandalskana cakap". Nasib laa sia ni bukan jenis yg cepat melenting. Apa yg sia tidak puas hati ialah durang suka kaitkan sia dengan orang itu, orang ini..Im just making a friend..My job need me bergaul luas and can communicate with all level..

Siapa yg makan lada dia laa yg terasa pedas. Jangan sampai sia menjauhkan diri dari kamu disebabkan hal2 begini. kamu kawan sia jugak tapi begini kh kawan? Kawan rapat lagi tu..Terang² sia ckp sia mimang tiada kaitan dengan org2 yang kamu sebut² melainkan sebagai kawan. Sama macam sia layan kamu jugak..begitu laa sia layan kawan² yang lain..Sia sebagai kawan kamu, sia akan simpan jugak rahsia kamu even you'e no longer the person I can trust. What ever I do, I will keep it to myself..Now I really miss my best friends. Tiada orang yg dpt ganti tempat kamu..Cella, Abeth, Boy, Tom, James..Even we seldom communicate with each others but when one of us dlm kesusahan, you guys adalah orang pertama datang utk menyokong dan memberi semangat..

Moral yang sia dapat Don't simply trust people. Musuh yang paling hampir ialah orang yang paling hampir dengan diri kita. Mulai sekarang sia akan beransur-ansur mengundurkan diri and to whom it may concern, you all will be regret it of losing me as a good friend. Once I trust people I will share everything, anything I have..sia bukan orang yg suka berkira tp kamu paksa sia untuk menjauhkan diri. I give a clear crystal of trust to everyone of my friends. once you broke it, you will never get the new one..even can fix it, the look will never be the same as the 1st time I give to you.

What a pack schedule..I think I need to re-arrange my schedule supaya tidak bertembung dengan event yg lain. As early as 5.30am in the morning, I rushing to outside catering event, after that I rush again to the next appointment with client for the event next month..Di sini laa yang membuatkan sia lambat sedangkan my next appoinment is 1pm but I just managed to come there by 2pm..Lucky for me all models has been there and Jeffie Jeff helping me while Im not around...Sorry Jeff, U r the best and thank you so much..Lucky Jeff not mad at me..finish rehearsal, Jeff rush to Le Meridian for doing bridal make up there.

I will post some photo later from the Breeze Magazine 3rd Anniversary Party later. To all my team-mate Fizy, Fabian, Danu, Nathaniel, Samantha, Dewina, Elaine Ashnee and Jeff. You guys rowk and Im happy working with you guys! whatever happened and something went wrong to unexpected situation is not your all fault.We owez hv a chance to do better next time and learned from the mistake of the night. Here I wanna wish thank you for the co-operated and I had fun with you guys. Will looking to meet up and co-operate to all of you next time...will see to the next fashion show..

Ni lagi satu kes mo bunuh diri...kejadian berlaku petang 24-3-2011.. Kalau kecewa SPM pn tak kan sampai nak bunuh diri..I know how the felt of fail and upset. .. Untuk adik ni, masih ada peluang lagi kalau nda mengubah keputusan..paper July masih ada laa dik..cuba lagi jgn patah semangat..Kalau rintangan macam ni pun dah putus asa macam mana nak hadapi keadaan hidup di luar sana..lagi banyak rintangan dan dugaan hidup yg kena kita hadapi..Don't U know why U born to this world..Because we are the champion..Kita laa juara..ramai orang yg berjaya hari ini bukan laa yg dapat kepuutusan cemerlang dalam SPM tapi kerana mereka tidak putus asa, tidak mudah mengaku kalah... Bunuh diri bukan jalan penyelesaian yang terbaik..

OMG! She is too pretty to be a man... can you guys guess this person is she or he?..hahaha...

Thailand's Got Talent S1 - Audition


Although, you were shemale but your skills were very excellent!!

Oooohhh...Starting from Monday 'till this Sunday I will fucking busy with a lot of thing to do. And today, I also invited to be part of the team for fashion show at Sutera..Do you think Im gonna decline that offer? Of course not..hehehe..Now I need to organize back again my schedule. I know, This is gonna be a long week to me and exhausted at the end. Yg penting Im happy and in the mean time, I can enjoy and having fun....haha..My FB pun belum lagi ter'update' statusnya.